Part 3
On the subject of a hierarchical
structure to existence, the Qabalah is again an interesting model because of
its sophisticated structure, which allows for many different interpretations
of its own nature. On one level, many practising magicians would choose to see
the structure of the ten Sephira - or spheres that make up the array known as
the Otz Chiim or Tree of Life - as a hierarchical one, with sephiroth number
one, Kether, as the absolute godhead at the top of the tree and sephiroth number
ten, the earthly sphere of Malknth, down at the bottom. The Golden Dawn based
their own highly hierarchical order upon which sphere on the tree one had attained
to, working up from the bottom. As a neophyte, one's task is to 'come to terms
with the concept of Malkuth before progressing on up the tree towards the higher
levels, eventually assuming the ultimate and possibly chimerical grade of Ipissimus
(this is the same as being God, only better, as people tend to respect you more
if you're self-made).
Qabalah seems to work fine when
operating under these assumptions, but for my own part I tend to interpret the
system differently: rather than viewing it hierarchically as a structure with
a top and bottom, I see it as a map or circuit-diagram that connects two remote
points (Ultimate God and the world of Matter) by the shortest possible route.
The energy can flow either way, and the structure itself has no preference.
Generally, we tend to think of the moon as being above the earth and the sun
as being above that (or, in Qabalah, of Yesod being above Malkuth, with Tiphareth
above them both), but, in actuality, there is no "up" or "down" in space, nor,
I believe, in the structure of the Otz Chum. If Kether is seen as special for
being the ultimate source and godhead of the process that is the Universe, then
Malkuth at the opposite end is also Seen as special for being the ultimate manifestation
of that initial divine explosion. Neither is higher or more important than the
other.
Another thing worth remembering
is that the Tree of Life arrangement is seen both as a conceptual map of the
entire existence and as a map of the individual human soul, the latter being
a microcosm of the former. In that sense, every individual has the entirety
of the Tree within themselves and the potential to experience it, even though
the vast majority may never stir themselves to do so (Inertia being the vice
of Malkuth). This is an important point and one which seems to match with some
of my own more extreme impressions during these episodes: the most peculiar
entities that I believe myself to have encountered, including presences which
appeared to be genuine Gods, have seemed to me to be at once utterly alien or
Other, and at the same time have seemed to be a part of myself Now, the rationalist
view of all magical encounters is probably that all apparent entities are in
fact externalised projections of parts of the self. I have no big argument with
that, except that I'd hold the converse to be true as well: we are at the same
time extemalised projections of them. In one sense, the simplest viewpoint might
be to accept that all manifestations, ourselves included, are simply different
stages of the unfolding of one multi-dimensional being into form.
One important magical ritual,
known as the Abramelin ritual, demands of the practitioner that he or she remove
themselves from society for a given period and work towards contacting the Holy
Guardian Angels. At the moment this is finally achieved, the successful Magus
must next plunge directly in Hell and subdue the demons there to his or her
will. Now, this ritual is very definitely talking about real angels and real
demons, but at the same time it's talking about getting in touch with your highest
consciousness or nature and using power drawn from this to bring your lower
levels of consciousness, your demons, into line, so that the whole multi-level
entity is working in unison and harmony.
I suppose all of this is a long-winded
way of saying that I don't necessarily think that we are held in disdain or
contempt by whatever forms of consciousness may exist on the "higher" levels.
I really don't think that "they," for the want of a better term, see things
how we probably would do in their situation. In fact, in my experience, human
frames of reference tend to fall away completely if one event ventures a short
distance up the structure. Form itself doesn't exist above the eighth sphere,
and individual consciousness doesn't exist above the seventh. The sixth is as
high as I've ventured as yet. and people who know a lot more about it than I
do have advised me that there is less and less to actually experience the higher
you get, while the dangers get more and more severe. Kether, the 'highest" allegedly
attainable point, is in one sense nothing more than the initial concept of existence
itself To go higher than Kether is to venture into a state higher than God that
is called the Am. This translates as absolute nothingness, the purest possible
state of being. There may be magicians who have gone there, but if so, they
never came back.
Now, moving on to what you actually
asked about. which was where I stood on the Free Will vs. Determinism issue:
if Stephen Hawking is correct when he suggests that Space-Time itself is a fourth-dimensional
solid probably shaped a bit like an egg or an American football, with the Big
Bang at one end, the Big Crunch at the other, and all other moments suspended
forever somewhere between, then I don't see how Free Will can possibly exist.
Time, while it is not actually the fourth-dimension in the sense that H.G. Wells
popularised it as being (after the theories of C. Howard Hinton, funnily enough),
is, as I understand it, more properly conceived as the shadow of a fourth spatial
dimension perceived by human consciousness.
What this means is that our view
of our own three-dimensional body is limited: if you had fourth-dimensional
vision and were standing at a point outside our continuum, you would perceive
your human semblance as a form of horrifically long millipede that would wind
back and forth over every landscape you have ever or ever will cross during
the course of your life. The millipede tapers slightly at both ends. At one
end is genetic slime and at the other extreme is dust or ash. Now imagine that
each section of the millipede is one instant of your life from birth to death,
all fused together. The way our perception of time works in this analogy is
like a peristaltic ripple of awareness that starts at one end and passes through
every segment in the chain of the millipede's body in sequence. As each individual
segment is lit up by awareness, it only has awareness of what it is, i.e., a
segment located at certain co-ordinates. When the awareness moves on to the
next segment in the body, it is aware of itself as a nearly identical segment
at a new co-ordinate, and it makes the reasonable assumption that it is the
same segment and that the segment has moved. In fact, the segment is unwittingly
part of a larger organism, and the only movement is the movement of its awareness
through that' organism's convoluted form.
To quote C. Howard Hinton's own
somewhat different way of expressing the notion. "Were such a thought adopted,
we should have to imagine some stupendous whole, wherein all that has ever come
into being or will come coexists, which, passing slowly on, will leave in this
flickering consciousness of ours, limited to a narrow space and a single moment,
a tumultuous record of changes and vicissitudes that are but to us." (Italics
mine.) Unless I'm missing something, this seems to rule out the conventional
notion of Free Will. However, to put a bright complexion on things, was Free
Will ever that much use in the first place? I have no doubt that against all
odds, I could move to. Hollywood tomorrow, but what would that prove? From a
determinist standpoint, it would only demonstrate that I was meant to be in
Hollywood tomorrow, in a sense already was in Hollywood tomorrow.
Quite aside from that, to some
degree the notion of Free Will resides in the mathematics of the situation.
As an example, if I take One individual and try to predict whether .he or she
will many, divorce, contract cancer, win the lottery, or convert to Catholicism,
I'm on a hiding to nothing and I can't win. That individual has free will, and
I cannot predict what he or she is going to do, or what will happen to him or
her.
If I look at a hundred individuals
and try to predict how many of them will contract cancer, how many will. marry,
how many will win the lottery, and so on, then my chances for making an accurate
prediction go up considerably. If I look at a billion individuals, I can make
chillingly accurate predictions about what will happen, statistically, to the
group. The, perception of Free Will is here seen as something that is relative
to the degree of mathematical resolution. You individually may seem to have
free will, but at higher levels of magnification, you will not be able to avoid
doing exactly your bit and no more to see that those statistical figures turn
out correctly. There is no Free Will. What happened.. happened. What will happen..
will happen. This is in certain light a scary and highly claustrophobic thought.
Reality becomes a tightly constrained tunnel which we are being forced to walk
down, with no way to turn back or take a different route. Sometimes the urge
to break out must be overwhelming.., which brings me to a very personal anecdote
that seems relevant both to the above notions and to the broader subject matter
of From Hell.
I'm a little uncomfortable talking
about this, because firstly it is frankly terrifying. and secondly it is very
difficult to explain without giving entirely the wrong impression of what I'm
saying. I'll try anyway.
When I was six years old, I was
sitting in our living room, in a straight-backed wooden chair, beside the dining
table. My Mother, whom I loved dearly. . was. kneeling at my feet fastening
my shoes for me, which I was either too incompetent or too lazy to do myself
On the table there was a carving knife. I remember looking at the knife and
realising in a vague and dreamy way that it would, technically speaking, be
physically possible for me to pick up the carving knife and stab my mother through
the back of the neck. Now, please bear in mind that I did not want to do this,
indeed had not the slightest intention of doing it. It was just that the idea
had entered my head, out of nowhere.
Upon closer examination, at the
kernel of the idea was this: I knew that I was not going to kill my own mother.
The idea was unthinkable. I knew that this was definitely not going to happen,
in the same way that you and I both know that I am not going to move to Hollywood
tomorrow. These things, while theoretically possible, are not in the script.
Therefore... and this is the nearest my adult mind can get to paraphrasing what
was going on in my six-year-old mind.., if I did stab and kill my own mother,
right there and then, then I would have gone outside the script. Done something
that wasn't destined to happen. Ad-libbed. I'd have broken through the fake
scenery. I'd force the director to come out and give me a talking to. I'd wake
from the dream, bust my way out of the relentless single corridor of predetermination
into... whatever.
Of course, while given to unusual
thoughts, I am not actually insane. Consequently. I didn't stab my mother: I
just felt creepy and horrible for ever having had the thought at all. After
a while, the incident was put to the back of my mind as just one of the many
mental aberrations that mark our childhoods.
What brought it to mind was a
quote during my serial killer research that was attributed to Ed Kemper. Now,
Ed came to decapitation and actual serial murder later in life, after first
serving a sentence as a juvenile for the killing of his own grandparents. For
no apparent reason whatsoever, the thirteen-year-old Kemper shot his grandmother
through .the back of the head. He then waited for his grandfather to get home
and shot him too. though this seems more of an afterthought. When asked why
he'd killed his grandmother. Kemper said that the gun had been to hand and he'd
thought something along the lines of: "I wonder what would happen if I killed
grandma?"
I don't know. Maybe I'm interpreting
Kemper's comment in light of my own experience, but this seems to me to hint
at a similar sort of urge: if we commit the unthinkable taboo of murder, something
that is outside the script, then in some way we will transcend the relentlessly
ordered continuum of time and reality. We will have done something that was
not meant to happen. Of course, as with the Alan Goes To Hollywood scenario..
.good name for a band, that, incidentally.. .hen we would of course do no such
thing. We would not break free of predestination, we would simply find out that
our destiny included the pointless murder of our mothers or an equally pointless
visit to Hollywood, and always had done. All the same, I can't help wondering
whether some variation upon this perverse urge to escape identity, time, and
reality might have fuelled some of our more demented killers now and again.
A harmless speculation and nothing more. Make of it what you will.
Yes. it's not hard to imagine the claustrophobic awareness
of being trapped inside the script as being a source of all manner of mischiefs.
Hitler, for example, or people fitting that personality profile wanting to extrapolate
that sense of exit-through-breaking-of-taboo into bigger broken taboo bigger
exit. As I consider it, one of the great satisfactions of doing a single story
for twenty-six years is the sense of submitting to that deterministic inevitability.
The 300 issues exist and have always existed (leaving aside the possibility
of my premature demise) in a specific form. The story has always ended the same
way. That becomes a kind of life line much easier to hold onto than "I have
eighty-two issues and fifteen and 1/4 pages left to fill - what if do it wrong?"
Very reassuring to know that - in one sense - the story is already done.
Taking your millipede illustration (marvelous, by the way),
I would see the role of Free Will reflected in the fact that while it is possible
to chart the geographic location of the millipede - beginning with birth and
ending with death - the millipede is also aware. Which would seem to indicate
(I'm really getting out of my depth here) that the Big Football is actually
a nearly unimaginable, nearly infinite number of Big Footballs consisting of
. .1 need a term here... Awareness Possibilities? i.e., you didn't stab your
mother with a knife (good boy by the way). but the fact of the awareness of
the potential act drew you from a state where the possibility of the act did
not occur to you, to a. state where it did I'm reminded of Jesus 'Sermon on
the Mount where, in reference to "Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery, "he brings
forward the new insight that lusting after a woman in your heart isn't good
either. He stops short (or I think he, or He, does) of making them equivalent
transgressions, but does seem to be pointing in the direction of ... awareness
proximities, and the need for self discipline out of proportion to what was
generally accepted as necessary up to the point where he, or He, introduced
it.
This ties in with Norman Mailer's insight relatively early
in his career - of the possible nature of God as an Embattled Being. The outcome
is not clear. God wrestles with the Devil in a cosmological sense as He wrestles
with the Devil in each of us. We have the possibility to fulfill His Plan, but
each conscious decision and each act either drains a little of His Essence or
contributes to it. If you add in another layer of' "imagination" wherein each
imagined decision and each imagined act likewise drains a little of His Essence
or contributes to it - a layer in which you did kill your mother just because
you pictured it so vividly - Free Will becomes an enormous thing to contemplate.
The late Diana Trilling, just as an aside, said that when Mailer's
conversation got this... "rarefied," I believe was the term she used... she
used to ask him if he liked chop suey (or something of an equivalent "grounding"
nature). The beleaguered Cerebus reader can be forgiven for asking, "Where is
Diana Trilling when we need her?"
If we presuppose the existence of an omniscient or near-omniscient
or omnipotent or near-omnipotent Being, who is to say that that Being is incapable
-of arresting the seeming inevitability that the Big Football can only have
that shape? Clearly a Stephen Hawking is working with a model that does not
presuppose such a Being capable of affecting outcome. As a scientist it would
be impossible for him to do so. Perhaps that's the message that science overlooks.
Perhaps God's Plan is intended to be a flower. which starts out looking very
much like a football in the bud state and then opens out. If He doesn't exist,
it is a given that we are a given' number of millipedes winding about the bit
of ground we have wound about before we return to dust and the Football is just
that, is only that, and can never be anything more than that.
A great deal could hinge on whether we are just before the
bulge in the Big Football or just after it.- The fact that (from what I understand)
we are currently in a narrow window (cosmologically speaking) where the sun
and the moon appear to be approximately the same size when seen from the Earth
might have something in common with this. A sign of our "outward boundness"
reaching the end of our potential state and the beginning of our kinetic state..
Individual self discipline to not only resist committing acts
of "bad faith," but to resist contemplating them could in the context of such
a speculation, be just enough to "snap open the chute" or cause the Big Flower
to blossom at the crucial instant when we reach the apogee of the Big Bulge
where presumably a kind of psychic weightless state will obtain before psychic
gravitation reasserts itself.
In such a scenario, Stephen Hawking becomes humankind's Ghost
of Christmas Yet-to-Be - pointing to our unhappy and possibly inevitable (possibly
not) fate. He also becomes a "byword among men "for his folly in presupposing
a universe made up solely of matter and energy, his debilitating infirmities
a manifestation -a physical Sign from On High. "Physicist, heal thyself" In
my view, such a presupposition -r'- it's all just one big football, so let's
just grab our millipede happiness where we can get it-is an inevitable "stumbling
block " in the path of the arrogant "now-we-know-everything" late-twentieth-century
humanist. scientific, if the evidence isn't capable of being duplicated in a
lab it isn't evidence corruption we have collectively become. A failure of will
and self-discipline to clean up our individual "coniemplating acts of bad faith
sphere," which would thus clean up our individual "acts of bad faith sphere,"
and which would thus clean up our collective "acts of bad faith sphere" said
failure of will and self-discipline having humanism and the core belief that
nothing exists except matter and energy as its primary source of sustenance.
Talk about rarefied - I need oxygen.
Do you think awareness - individual awareness - harnessed effectively,
is capable of affecting things on such a scale, given your own experiences with
it (he asked, limping off in the direction of the medicine cabinet for a couple
of Tylenol)?
Tylenol-induced afterthought. I suppose any speculation along
the lines of the above would hinge, to a great extent, on whether one conceives
God to be inside or outside the Big Football. I would tend towards speculating
"outside" although I wouldn't hazard to guess whether any part of your speculative
construction would fall "outside" as well. It does seem to me that a construction
with two dichotomous, polar-extreme absolute realities (which you allude to)
might get chalked up on Norman Mailer's Embattled God scoreboard as a "win"
for the Devil, given that you perceive them as having equal importance or at
least that neither has greater importance.
Of course, this football of coexisting
Space-Time has some other interesting properties when considered morally. For
example, if there is truly no linear time as we understand it, then the events
that make up the vast hyper-solid 'of existence can be read with as much validity
from back to front as from front to back. The 'physics, as I understand it,
would work just as well whichever way you write the equations. Due to the orientation
of our perceptions, we read the Universe as following the course of time's arrow,
and we believe that the arrow points only one way. This reading of the Universe
is, however, not more essentially "true" than its opposite. Hawking's equations
for what is happening at the event horizon of a singularity turned out to be
an exact time-reverse of his equations for what is happening during the Big
Bang. The Big Bang is the Big Crunch talking backwards. Whoo-oo-ooh. Spooky.
Even stranger is what happens if you
bring that premise down from the cosmological to a human moral level: that our
lives are as "true" if we view the film in reverse. In this reading of the world
our inert bodies are dug up from the ground or magically reassembled in the
inferno of a crematorium oven. After a brief period, the brain and heart miraculously
start working and we are born as old people. We maybe meet our spouse at the
divorce hearing ...the relationship feels bad at first but gets better over
the years until it reaches one night of absolute magic in our teens or whenever,
after which we never see them again. Daily we draw heat and energy from the
air with our reversed actions. We invest that energy into the faecal matter
that we ingest through one of the two symmetrical time-reverse mouths that terminate
our alimentary canal. We regurgitate a healthy amount of food daily. Our teeth
sculpt the pulp back into, say, half a potato. Our cutlery will attach the other
half to it. Stick it in a pan of unboiling water for a while to take the heat
and softness out, then put its skin back on. When you've got a bag full, take
it back to the supermarket and they'll give you some money for it. (The money
will come in useful when you have to pay the distributors, who need to pay the
retailers so that the retailers can give them lots of copies of Cerebus back
to you for disassembly.) The store will unbuy it back to the farmer (at mark-down,
obviously), and the farmer will bury the thing so that it can break down into
it component chemicals; turn its chlorophyll back into photons to be hovered
up by sunbeams and sucked into the immense fission-reaction that is the sun.
In a construction like this, we enter
a charmed and often charming world where the laws of moral cause and effect
become strangely altered; serial murderers become midwives. Thieves become benefactors.
Artists and writers siphon pictures and stories from the minds of their readers,
maybe convert them into perceptions and experiences and events for the childhood
that still lies ahead of them. The image of a rose in our mind floods down the
neural channels to the retina, where it is encoded in photons. The light pours
from our eyes to make the vision of the flower - the cosmos. Tyrants become
liberators and vice-versa. Sin is a one-way thing that doesn't really seem to
hold up in this palindromic world view.
As to whether God is inside or outside
the system. I maybe ought to clarify some of the Qabalistic notions I was flashing
around earlier: If I understand the system correctly, then God is neither/both
inside nor/and outside the system, since God is the system. The godhead sephiroth,
Kether, is seen as entity at the moment of its creation out of nothing, usually
symbolised by a point within a circle. That energy then passes through several
modifying stages, these being the various sephira that make up the arrangenient
of the tree. Having come into existence as a single point of pure being at Kether,
it is next given a reference point and expressed outwards by the second sephiroth,
Chokmah; is imprinted with the possibility of eventual form at Binah; is nurtured
at Chesed; is purged of unworthy elements at Geburali; and so on "down" the
tree until it is finally manifested in physical form at Malkuth, the sphere
of the physical universe.
The energy is all God. God is existence.
When gods are applied to the Tree of Life arrangement, it's customary
to put them in whichever drawer of the filing cabinet they seem appropriate:
Apollo at Tiphareth; Thoth and Hermes at Hod; Venus and Nike at Netzach; and
so on. The god associated with Kether is usually the One Almighty God, the Creator
of the Bible and the Koran. Aleister Crowley, however, made the valid suggestion
that Pan might represent Kether as well as any of them: Pan, it will be remembered,
is the Greek word meaning "All." God is All. The physical Universe, including
our bodies, is the physical body of God. All feeling is the feeling of God.
All Self is the Self of God. The only game that can be played between God and
the Devil, Norman Mailer to one side, is solitaire. And that, as the Carpenters
have wisely remarked, is the only game in town.
Can the thoughts or deeds of one person
affect the continuum? Well, yes, but the situation is actually far worse than
that: the thoughts, deeds, and minute antennae movements of an ant can affect
the whole continuum. The continuum is a monstrous fractal tapestry of events,
all of which are intimately connected, all of which are ultimately the corpus
of one organism (see above). God/Existence is, in one sense, an example of the
ultimate fugue.
Speaking of ants and fugues, I'm reminded
of M. C. Escher's Ant Fugue, and a brilliant written piece based upon it by
Douglas R. Hofstadter. This appears in Hofstadter's excellent anthology of consciousness-related
writings, The Mind's I, and in it Hofstadter considers the anthill as a model
of fugue consciousness: the individual ants are chemical robots with nothing
that we would recognise as awareness, responding only to pheromone signals.
This bottom level of an anthill's consciousness has a more sophisticated level
of signal-consciousness that rules it and guides it. This consciousness cannot
be said to exist in the mind of any one individual ant, and yet somehow it exists
in the complex interaction of all of them. Up above the signal level of consciousness
is a level of symbol-consciousness that guides and mediates the signal level
beneath it. This level, the unfathomable symbol-level of anthill consciousness,
could be said to be the living awareness of the anthill considered as an individual
entity.
The players in Hofstadter's story (Achilles,
a tortoise, and an anteater, if I remember correctly) admit that they cannot
possibly imagine what the symbol-level of anthill consciousness would be like
to experience. This is likened to the experience of listening to a fugue: if
you concentrate on the individual components, you cannot be so conscious of
the elaborate overall pattern of the fugue. If you listen to that overall pattern,
you lose awareness of the individual voices from which it is composed. If we
substitute "God/Existence" for "anthill" in the story, then the central point
remains true. God's consciousness is the whole of the fugue. Most of the time,
we can only follow our own individual voice. Occasionally, our consciousness
might expand to the point where we get more of a sense of the overall structure
of the fugue. The danger of this is that in doing so, we risk losing our own
individual voice. In Qabalistic terms, those who, achieve the level of Kether
could be said to experience the full fugue. By the same terms, very few Qabalists
in their right mind would aspire to Kether without intense and serious preparation,
since the principal risk is that one will be annihilated absorbed into that
ultimate whiteness, into the full pattern of the music, never to emerge. The
individual voice is lost.
On a final note regarding Free Will,
it seems to me that the suffocating claustrophobia of the determinist scenario
is considerably alleviated by the fact that even if all events happen to a fixed
schedule and in a fixed order. we are still at considerable liberty in how we
perceive. read, and interpret those events. The divine ghost of Consciousness,
which bestows meaning as part of its purpose, can pass back and forth unhindered
through the writhing ball of centipedes that is our human world, and it can
.paint whatever picture it likes of its journeys.
To return, startlingly at this juncture,
I'm sure, to From Hell for a moment, what we have in the Whitechapel murders
is a real cluster of events that really happened in our real human world. The
events are fixed and immutable; they cannot be changed any more than the words
in the Bible could be changed. However, just as with the Bible, those events
can be read in an almost infinite variety of ways. Leonard Matters reads it
one way, with a doctor maddened by bereavement inflicting vengeance on whores
for a son of his, dead of syphilis. Tom Cullen reads it another way, with Montague
Druitt sexually insane and murdering five women before throwing himself into
the Thames. Michael Harrison reads it with the syphilitic Duke of Clarence in
the title role. Stephen Knight reads it and swaps Prince Eddy for his doctor,
Sir William Gull. Harlan Ellison reads it and gets his excellent "The Prowler
in the City at the Edge of the World." I read it and overprint it with a bunch
of psycho-geographical and mythico-historical notions. and we get From Hell.
When each event has such a multitude of facets.., like James Joyce's day in
Dublin... then our "in within the straitjacket of a predetermined Universe suddenly
starts to look more like a trip to Disneyland. Or even to somewhere actually
nice.
Well, I'm not sure I'm talking about sin or evil or Evil, per
se. If the deeds and minute antennae movements of an ant can affect the whole
continuum (and I would tend to agree with that), then I think the individual
choice between "0" and "1" has significance out of what we would perceive as
conventional proportions. Just a speculation or a rumination (have to keep track
of my own language, don't I?) -- but I would tend to see a moral and ethical
choice as a moral and ethical choice whether it is viewed on "play," 'fast forward,"
or "quick reverse." I think it's easy to mistake complexity or a larger inventory
of facts for knowledge, insight, and/or truth. Better telescopes and spectrographic
analysis of data do not . to me refute the notion that God created the stars.
We have an infinitely more complex picture of the. largest imaginable... venue...for
want of a better term, in the scientific end of things, and (judging from my
headache) once you put all of the arcane philosophies and magiks and alchemies
into some semblance of a structure, as you have (clearly) spent a great deal
of energy and time doing, you end up with an equally complex picture of the
largest imaginable Venue on the Mystical end of things. Even assuming that both
models become even larger over the next - say - twenty years (and what reason
would I have for doubting it?), the question would still come down to: is God,
per Se, the accumulation, the sum total of all these structures, or did He create
all these structures? To me there's a large distinction between saying, "we
are part of God's pancreas"' and "we might possibly be housed in the pancreas
of a nearly unimaginably large being created by God." Likewise the notion that
God is an accumulation of all perceptions of Him. I would agree with your anthill
analogy (I loved what Rick Veitch did with the beehive in Maximortal along the
same lines) there is a being that is created of the sum of humankind, all plant
life, the beasts of the field, the fowls of the air, the fish that swim, etc.,
etc., an accumulated Awareness Totality composed of Archetypes and fractal complexities
far beyond the capacities of the individual awareness to CONceive, let alone
PERceive. There are just too many microcosms of that structure in all of the
perceptions I have or know about for me to be even remotely inclined to disbelieve
its veracity. But, to me, that's not God. Call him Bang-Bulge-Crunch (last seen
in Strange Tales, issue 77 I'm sure you remember the classic Kirby cover. "There's
no escaping the terror of Bang-Bulge-Crunch" If you want a name for him, but
it or he is still a closed system and not infinite. God is infinite, ergo Bang-Bulge-Crunch
is not, by definition, God.
Picking up on your optimistic last paragraph, I whole-mindedly
and (steady, now) wholeheartedly agree. There is a persuasive argument to be
made that we are on the cusp of a genuinely more Mature Age where the "no-two-snowflakes-
alike" quality, of individual awareness and expression is going to be seen as
an unanticipated bonus of humanity having not done too bad a job of getting
to 1997 more or less in one piece. If we haven 't achieved the complete eradication
of War and poverty and Disease and Famine, at least we have learned a few lessons
- it would be hard to imagine anyone coming forward at this junctl4re and presenting
themselves as the Next Nixon or an Improved Stalin or the 21st Century's Answer
to Joe McCarthy. ,If we can keep progressing on our present course to a place
where divergent philosophies and opinions are seen to be just that - and not
grounds for incarceration, oppression, or wholesale purging (or even full retail
purging) - I think most of us will be pretty astonished at the general improvement
that would result.
I don't want you to think I'm edging away from what we 're
talking about (although I think we may have clan/led the differences between
us to whatever extent that is possible - unless you 're interested in me bringing
out my perception of Mailer's Embattled God for another three-minute round.
It is your interview), but I understand you've written a wonderful graphic novel
called From Hell. What's it all about, then? I'm sure my readers would be fascinated
to...
Just kidding.
I often find long after I'm done with one of the Cerebus books
- that! was telling myself something in the course of telling the story. I mean,
quite apart from what I was consciously putting into it (and I find that that
-sometimes makes me smile when I run across one I've forgotten), my unconscious
mind was either warning me about what was up ahead or giving me a more accurate
perception of what I'd just gone through that my conscious mind (at the time)
was still wrestling with.
Anything in From Hell that surprises Alan Moore when he looks
back on it?
Regarding the retroactive surprises that the unconscious can spring on you during the course of a work. although I'm very familiar with the phenomenon itself. I've had a hard time remembering any actual examples of the process with regard to From Hell. I suppose the main surprise didn't so much hinge upon one particular sequence or episode as upon the whole of the work: despite my faith in the "high-altitude mapping" approach described earlier, I still found myself slightly unnerved by the way in which subsequently unearthed fragments of information would fit so seamlessly into the parameters of my first scribbled schematic. One example out of dozens would be the details of John Netley's death; his horse colliding with an obelisk. While writing chapter four, with all its emphasis on obelisks and Netley's growing unease with these symbols, I was not even completely sure that any coachman named John Netley had ever existed, much less died in such a thoroughly appropriate manner.
The thing is, if From Hell had not been labelled as a fiction and a melodrama from the outset, if From Hell had, like nearly all the other Ripper fictions, chosen to describe itself as fact, then I would no doubt have been greatly cheered to find these validations of my vision of "the truth." All Ripperologists spin gorgeous insubstantial cloths of fantasy upon the hard forensic loom of the established "evidence." Thc problem is that many of them do not choose to perceive the resultant work as fiction. What I would describe as "the plot of my fiction," they would more likely describe as their theory of the truth. In such a mindset, familiar to all conspiracy theorists and X-Files fans, any fragment of fact, rumour, or urban myth that can be made to fit with the evolving pattern is seen as strong confirmatory evidence of that theory's reality. Best of all, a lack of any evidence can also be interpreted as proof of the theory's validity: Why didn't the police unearth more evidence about Jack the Ripper at the time? Because they were part of the cover-up. Why hasn't any verifiable evidence from the flying saucer crash at Roswell turned up? Because "they" are keeping it from us.
During the course of writing From Hell, I met an author whose books are, I believe, popular in the New Age-Occult market, these being books on something called "psychic questing." The premise behind this, as far as I can see, is that you decide to go on a quest with a couple of mates of yours who happen to be psychic. Maybe you're looking for the Holy Grail or the Spear of Destiny or, I dunno, your car keys or something. Your psychic mates will lead you to a bunch of stone circles, ancient churches, and similar significant sites, picking up lots of clues on the way (many of them psychically. It's just, you know, this vibe. You wouldn't understand). Quite possibly, along the way things will go wrong. This is usually a sign that you're under psychic attack, and a quick check with your psychic mates will almost certainly confirm this. Looking in the newspaper, you may find that the 5:15 train from Liverpool to London has crashed that day, which you will sensibly conclude was probably caused by the malevolent psychic energy aimed by your astral adversary, rebounding from your force-screen of white astral light to reap havoc amongst innocent commuters. At the end, you write a book about your true-life adventures. I'm being hideously unfair here, I'm sure, but you get the gist.
Anyway, during my brief conversation with this author, he told me that he himself had been investigating the astral residue of Whitechapel, along with a couple of paranormal pals, and that his findings suggested that my "theory" in From Hell was pretty much the way it actually happened. I felt as if I was being cruel when I politely pointed out that From Hell was, in fact, a made-up comic-book story, with probably about as much bearing upon historical "reality" as Disney's Pocahontas. Nothing against the guy personally, you understand, and I'm sure his approach to psycho-geography is every bit as valid as my own, but I really did not want to put so much as a toe into the inviting pool of "The Truth.". Truth is a well-documented pathological liar. It invariably turns out to be Fiction wearing a fancy frock. Self-proclaimed Fiction, on the other hand, is entirely honest. You can tell this, because it comes right out and says, "I'm a Liar," right there on the dust jacket. Were I to read the biography of Prime Minister-in-waiting Tony Blair (saw him on a walkabout through town centre a few weeks back. Looked like a fucking Thunderbird puppet), then at the end of it I would still not know where I stood with Tony Blair. I do, however, know where I stand with Hannibal Lecter and the Wizard of Oz.
To get back to the point of this meander, while I was working upon From Hell I was constantly unnerved and amazed by the amount of confirming "evidence" that turned up to support my "theory," precisely because I knew that it wasn't a theory: it was a fiction. This is a much more strange and wonderful phenomenon than simply being able to say, "I was right all along! William Gull was Jack the Ripper!" When the Universe seems to confirm our fictions as opposed to our supposed theories, then this suggests a strange relationship between fiction, mind, perception, and cosmos that is far more gripping than simply solving a whodunit.
I once heard an anecdote about a contemporary magician who decided to put this principle to the test by adopting a belief so strange that nobody could possibly mistake it for reality and then seeing what happened. The belief he decided to go with was that Noddy, the little toy-car driving and belied-hat wearing protagonist of Enid Blyton's children's books, was in fact the absolute creator of the Universe and the God of all Gods. Within a couple of weeks he abandoned the experiment in alarm, finding himself upon the brink of conclusively proving that Middy was the Supreme Being. He'd come across magazine articles showing freshly discovered cave-drawings of an obviously sacred figure wearing what appeared to be a tall pointed hat with a little bell on the top. He'd read an interview with Enid Blyton herself in which she described a strange vision that had come to her while under the influence of gas at the dentist; in which she had been whisked across the Universe at the speed of light to meet God himself, although he couldn't describe the details of their conversation. This, along with a whole mess of other stuff and previously hidden meanings in Bible passages (Cain is banished to the Land of Nod in Genesis, for example), seemed to indicate that Nod was God and Enid Blyton His prophetess.
With From Hell, and in light of the above, I sup-pose I'd have to say that if there was one line that struck an eerily resonant unconscious chord with what later developed in the book, it would be a line from the prologue, spoken by Robert Lees and included for no real reason other than that it sounded good and seemed appropriate: "I made it all, up, and it all came true anyway. That's the funny part.".
Me? An anti-pope? Why, if you think your strategic alliance
with the Extreme One will serve your nefarious purposes now that he has been
cast out by the Five-Fold Asses of the Graven Image...
I really musn't joke about such things. Having resigned as
'leader" of the self-publishers when.! was called the "godfather" of self-publishing
on CBC Radio. I now have a letter on my coffee table from a new self-publisher
calling me the "patron saint" of self-publishing (without the quotation marks,).
In all seriousness, I find this troubling - the fact that there seems to be
neither appreciation nor awareness of anything Larger than that which is in
front of the late-20th-century collective nose.
I can't help but think that your last reply is of great value
in that area. We are liars - most charitably we could be described as fabricators
or inventors. We take a snatch of conversation, a bit of a book we once read
(and have misremembered most times), a fragment of a recollection from our own
past, and create a lie that we make as interesting as we can. The value I see
in your last reply is that it is somewhat incumbent on us (or, at least, I think
it is) to relay to would-be writers would-be professional liars - a cautionary
note about what is in store if they really immerse themselves in it. Call it
karma or hubris or a "snare for the unwary" (in the biblical sense of the phrase)
that if you go around earning your livelihood by lying, those lies are quite
likely to come back to you in as you put it "unnerving" ways. Yours seems the
most sensible course and the one I've adopted as well.. "Isn't that interesting?"
and then get back to what you were doing. It might well be a sign "; it probably
isn't a sign, and you're on the slippery slope to L. -Ron-Hubbard-Land if you
take it as a Sign. "Isn't that interesting? Oh, almost forgot -I'm out of toothpaste.
I must go and buy some toothpaste." I think of Oscar Wilde writing "The Picture
of Dorian Gray" before he met Alfred Douglas. Talk about a "snare for the unwary."
Jaka has turned up in my life on three or four occasions, but always at a distance
or in such a way that it was easy enough to avoid her. Which I do having drawn
her umpty-ump times, I know the difference between an approximation and the
genuine article. Stare, at her for a Jew seconds. "Isn't that interesting? Right,
that's enough staring," and back to whatever I was doing.
We traffic in allegories and metaphors and symbols: I don't
know about you, but almost every conversation I have with someone takes place
on at least two levels: the enjoyable human level and the writerly mind busily
dissecting each tidbit and putting it into its little allegory, metaphor, and
symbol compartments. I've found I'm much better off paying more attention to
the former than the latter. When the situation was reversed the writerly mind
dominating and the human side of things a distant second being a writer was
a burden. It was always in the way. I've just had a letter from a fan asking
if you and Neil and I go out and get drunk together, like regular chaps. I've
discussed this with you before, back in my drinking days - that is, heavy drinking
days - and the last person I wanted to get drunk with was another writer. The
first thing I wanted after coming back from a convention or signing, where I'd
been tippling with other creative-type types, was to go out and have a proper
piss-up where all I talked about was how the Leafs were doing, whether the coach
or the general manager should be fired, and just be an all-around fool ala Guys.
Virtually no one that I socialise with in Kitchener has more than the vaguest
idea of what I do for a living. "So, you still doing those cartoons?" 'Yeah,
it keeps me off the streets for the most part." The travel interested them.
Some deluded individual or other was willing to pay good money to fly me to
an American city and put me up in a hotel, and people come to get my autograph.
Now that I don't go to the conventions and such, the "so what's new and exciting
n your life?" question goes by the board in pretty short order. "Nothing much,
working hard Always working hard." It seems the best of both worlds - the gratification
of everything that goes into being a writer and artist, having a certain "name
value" in my chosen profession, steady work, a better income than most - and
so on, just being a face in the crowd with nothing to remind me of the other
part of my life when I go home at night. Having spent a large part of this series
discussing the former reality or "reality" (in both our cases), I thought I'd
give you the chance to assure everyone that you aren't ensconced in a Doctor
Strange-style loft, draped in velvet raiments, with retorts and beakers bubbling,
and doorways to other dimensions opening and closing around you as you're reading
this. What's Alan Moore like when he's "down the pub"?
Up on the top shelf, the two-hundred-year old skull of a Tibetan monk, inlaid and decorated with silver, the skull cap removable as a drinking bowl. Framed letter from Leah Hirsig, written in Switzerland in 1927 and signed for Crowley. Next, to the stained-glass OTz ChIIM, a framed one-panel "Road Bit" from Veitch featuring a dream of me and my mother that he had the same week she fell ill with cancer and which was published the same week she was diagnosed terminal, a lovely, uplifting little cartoon that shows us both filling a gorge with plastic flowers. Chalices, Ouija Board, Sword, Mask, Wand, Jars of incense, Pictures of Gods and Demons and other imaginary things. The robe is in the wardrobe upstairs. I only wear it on special occasions, since it's far too beautiful to just knock around the house in. Orange silk with a periwinkle silk collar and belt. Much classier than that second-hand Ox.fam-shop shit that Dr. Strange was always hanging about in.
I suppose the point I'm making is that when I "came out" as a Magician, I came all the way out like a full, screeching drag queen. I openly talked about my experiences and ideas with anybody from cab drivers to members of my family. The mysterious and wonderful thing is that it hasn't made the slightest bit of difference to anything. Everybody accepted it as if, on reflection, it was the most normal thing in the world. I insisted on treating demons, angels, and giant talking God-Snakes as if they were a part of my normal every-day existence, and thus by extension a part of general everyday existence. Nobody argued, and, indeed, a large percentage would timidly venture some bizarre experience of their own, as if relieved to finally have somebody to breathe it to. I insist that Magic is Real Life. I behave as if it is, and everybody just sort of, you know. Goes along.
Maybe my relationship with Northampton is different to your relationship with Kitchener, I don't know. I've always lived here and was relatively well known even before I became involved professionally with comics. If you look distinctive and live in a fairly small place all your life, you end up becoming a part of the landscape that is if not unchanging and everlasting, a great deal more stable and enduring than most of the buildings that make up the town centre these days. Probably because of the television and magazine exposure back in the eighties and the odd bits and pieces since, a lot of people seem to be aware of what I do and who I am. That said, they also tend to leave me alone for the most part, which is why I live here. I do get somebody every couple of weeks who'll come up to me in the pub or the street and say something nice about my work, but then I'll get just as many people who'll remember me from when I worked at the pipe-laying company or who remember me as Chick Moore's nephew. Or even Mad Ginger Vernon's great-grandson. Or Leah and Amber's dad who does the comics and got on that Pop Will Eat Itself record.
There's a continuity here that I am much more a part of than I am of the comics industry's continuity. One of the things about that continuity.., and I'm mailing you a copy of Voice of the Fire so that you'll at least have an idea of what I'm talking about...is that it is very old and scarred and knowledgeable, and that it finds very few things surprising any more. When I told my family (who are all very traditional, no-nonsense members of the traditional working class) about becoming a Magician, nobody batted an eyelid. My mother went into a state of child-like marvel at the Snake God picture and wanted a copy immediately, as did my devoutly Christian auntie. Conversely, neither of them wanted the Asmodeus picture anywhere in the house. Older people who've listened to The Moon and Serpent Grand Egyptian Theatre of Marvels C.D. often seem more receptive and less spooked by it than many of the younger types who've heard it. I almost got a sense, during those early weeks, that at least as far as my family went, the idea of somebody deciding to become a magician was just one of those things that happened every couple of hundred years. Interesting, but nothing to get excited about, and we've still sot to pay the bills, after all. No big deal, but worthy of respect. Probably more worthy of respect than writing comics, which is much less Universal.
Also, to me, Magic is not a strange and alien planet that we visit, so much as a new set of eyes to look at this planet through, a new language by which our ordinary lives can be expressed more luminously. For a Magician, walking down the street to buy a pack of cigarettes at the corner shop is a Magical experiece. Anything from the licence plates of cars to the candy wrappers in the gutter to the casual remarks of passers-by is a potential source of information or inspiration. The Magician is reading things according to the rules of a different grammar, but he or she is reading the same book as everyone else. There really isn't any need for the Occultist to become distanced from the world by his or her behaviour, although a great many seem to do so. A laudable exception is Austin Osman Spare, the only Magician this century to offer any serious competition to Crowley. Spare rejected his promising art career in the West End, turned his back on that entire world, and lived in the slums of Brixton or the East End, exhibiting in the back rooms of pubs rather than the galleries that he was offered. He associated almost exclusively with the chronic urban poor, not out of any warped middle-class notion of charity but simply because they were the people he most liked to be with. They also probably accepted him for what he was: good at drawing, good laugh to have a drink with, looked after his mates, and could make it rain by drawing a squiggle on a piece of scrap paper. Smashing geezer.
I suppose what I'm saying is: "What you see is what you get." These days, after a great deal of hard Work, I haye refined the Hydra down to one head. I'm Alan Moore when I'm talking to my daughters, or to my eighty-nine-year-old aunt, or to the police, or to my readers, or to myself. I'm Alan Moore when I'm writing Supreme or From Hell or my part of this discussion. I'm the same person I am when I take out the bin-bags on a Thursday night. This is not easy, but it is at least possible, and, I believe, desirable.
Okay, I guess I'm all through. Looking down to bottom of the screen here, I see I'm on page 38 of the document I've christened "SIM 1". Might I take this opportunity to personally apologise to your readers, who have certainly never harmed me, for an experience that was probably not dissimilar to being trapped in a stalled elevator with David. Koresh and Charles Manson. Of course, on the other hand, they've never gone out of their way to be nice to me, either, so fuck 'em. They ought to be grateful that they're not personally involved in this conversation, so it's not their Tylenol headache. They ought to be doubly grateful that I'm not sitting in the same room as them; talking to them and making eye contact with them, in which case you can stop thinking Tylenol headache and start thinking temporal lobe seizure. I'm not joking. At least not these days.
Dave, this has been a very enjoyable conversation. Thank you for giving an old man the opportunity to talk about himself at such extraordinary length and in such a prestigious forum. Of course, I realise that if you really liked me then I'd have got a cameo in Guys like my slipshod, head-omitting collaborator, but I guess I'll learn to live with it. Cerebus, as if I need to say so, is still to comic books what Hydrogen is to the Periodic Table, and is one of the only comics that I still read and enjoy regularly every month. Alright, so this is only in the hope of finding myself face down ifl a pool of my own vomit in some minor panel of Guys. but you must learn to take compliments graciously.
Incidentally, I had this dream of the last issue of Cerebus the last page or so, in fact. He was ascending towards some sort of minimalist special effect, and it was in colour. I remember there was quite a bit of azure blue. That's all I can tell you.
My very best to you and Gerhard. Get over here again soon, and we can continue this conversation over cold beers and hot temporal lobe seizures.
Take care,
Alan
Well, I'll certainly be taking you up on that particular offer.
Perhaps this November or the next I think would be appropriate, given that the
late fall is the season of each of the chapters of Voice of the Fire (ISBN 0-575-05249-X,
Victor Gollancz imprint, the Cassell Group, Wellington House, 125 Strand, London
W2R OBB. £10 plus postage). Just as an aside, I read the book on a recent vacation
with the girlfriend and having left it behind when we were switching hotels
it provoked the nearest we come these days to a serious argument when I insisted
we had to go back for it... NOW, RIGHT now. Priding myself on my singular immersion
in my Judeo-Christian heritage (of -very recent vintage), I fancied the ectoplasmic
Alan Moore snickering into his orange silk cuff at the devotee of the Lamb of
God barrelling down a Florida highway, ardent to reconnect with the Magician's
Booke.
With as much grace as I can muster, thank you for your compliments
on Cerebus. Of course all of the cameo appearances in Guys were self-publishers
and self-published characters (I had to substitute Hilly Rose for Katchoo at
the last minute when Terry Moore went "over the side" - such a changeable landscape),
but there are three novels remaining in the Cerebus saga and my competitive
nature won't allow your incarnation in your ancestrally challenged collaborator's
Bacchus series stand as the definitive Alan Moore character (which it is at
the moment) in comic-book land.
My relationship with Kitchener is very different from yours
with Northampton, which is probably to be expected, having as much to do with
the distinction between the relative newness of this city and the "old and scarred
and knowledgeable" quality of your own stomping ground. As I'm fond of saying,
most places in the United Kingdom have pubs that are hundreds of years older
than Canada itself. Voice of the Fire is marvellous in conveying exactly that
sense of very, very deep roots that permeates the North American awareness (mine,
anyway) when travelling around your quaint little island (I'll nod, Alan, but
I shan't kneel, you know).
It's been an exhilarating experience, our little exchange of
views (little, he says, as the Dave Sim/Alan Moore fax file enters its second
trimester on top of the office filing cabinet). And if our respective belief
systems remain intact - mine, that Alan has fallen prey to the implied limitations
of Bang-Bulge-Crunch and his Legions of the Fallen and We Won't Get Up and You
Can't Make Us, and yours (correct me if I'm wrong) that Dave has been gulled
(oblique 'From Hell reference) by that peculiar Solar Redeemer cult that got
way out of hand and has closed himself off from all this Really Cool stuff that
is only a pentagram and a ritual away...
Well, at least we have avoided dredging up the really old business.
Like Nero immolating our crucified lads when he found himself short of patio
lanterns for one of his little garden parties, or all of the magnificent pagan
temples and statues that fell to the wrecking ball. "Old and scarred and knowledgeable,"
indeed. If there is more than enough recrimination to go around, I would hope
that we have at least arrived at a place in history where, with insight born
of over-view, it is possible to attribute the largest blame for past atrocities
on the imposition of systems of belief by force... and to recognise that it
is the imposition - and not the beliefs - that needs to be eliminated.
Let me also express in answer to your observation that you
are far, far more apart of Northamptonshire's continuity than that of the comic-book
industry that I can't... nor would i want to... take issue with that. But I
would draw the distinction between the industry and the medium... very, very
sharply. With the progress of your contributions to the medium. from Swamp Thing
to Watchmen and V for Vendetta, Brought to Light and A Small Killing, and with
your (to this point) summit achievement with From Hell, it is very sad to consider
that future opportunities for a comic-book writer of your stature would be limited
to Spawn and Supreme, entertaining as they are - and, believe me, I find them
very entertaining.
I don't see it as your failure, but rather a failure of the
medium and the current configuration in which it finds itself It seems to me
that the medium has always been (and never more so than today) an amorphous
being composed of the sum of the awarenesses and actions of the loose community
of individuals who are its most active participants and practitioners. A persuasive
argument could be made that there just aren't enough crazy people with too much
money around anymore, as was the case when I let Bissette off his leash to put
together his dream horror anthology and twenty thousand dollars or so later
kicked him out of the nest, whereupon he spent thousands of his own money (which
he didn't have) to keep it going until he got swept up in Kevin Eastman's singular
and selfless Tundra madness, which eventually merged with Denis Kitchen - who
was crazy years before any of us were. Crazy and selfless. The madness and the
money went west and adhered to super-heroes and Hollywood, twin banes for those
of us who are always attempting to fry larger fish.
Perhaps no small part was played by that peculiar British instinct
to hastily raise up an icon and then just as hastily put it out to pasture (a
skill honed to perfection with rock 'n' roll's British invasion), I think you
and Neil both had about fifteen minutes to enjoy the laurel crown before would-be
British successors and fans began demoting you from the pantheon to the metaphorical
British Elba. A most quaint and peculiar little island.
I had a chance to spend some time with Neil and Scott McCloud
at Will Eisner's 80th birthday party (there's a name-dropping sentence if ever
there was one). Through good luck I've been able to just do Cerebus for nearly
twenty years now. What little interest I have in other forms of art, entertainment,
and communication is insufficient to tempt me away from the comic-book field
(and I don't see that changing after 2004, frankly). I do recognise that others
are not that way. If Neil is drawn to writing .a television series or a novel
or an illustrated book like Stardust, if Scott finds himself lost in cyberspace
(I think I'vre fallen, but it's hard to tell because there is no "Up"), and
if you are going to devote your energies to another novel or a CD, well...
At least the medium... the medium, not the industry... got
Sandman and Mr. Punch and Zot and Understanding Comics and From Hell out of
you before you left and maybe you're just on holiday and you'll be back when
the madness and the money reconfigure themselves. Maybe not.
Anyway, thanks .. sincere thanks - from those of us who aren't
going on any holidays anytime, soon, for giving us ..for giving the medium such
a high watermark of an achievement.
Next issue: Alan Moore's Conclusion: FROM HELL
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